A letter for an angel

It feels like the day I first saw you was only yesterday. You were so small, wrapped in that blanket. The amount of energy you had, so much happiness.. Already annoying the living hell out of your big brother. Sometimes I wish I could go back to that day, see that little ball of sunshine who brought so much happiness to our broken little family. 

Sometimes I can’t help but blame myself, tell myself that I did something wrong. But they said this was best for you, they said it was better this way, that at least you didn’t have to die on the streets alone.. At least you had a loving family before you left. You still have your loving family.

We were like partners in crime, exploring the world together. We shared so many good memories in such a short amount of time. I grew to love you so very much, you were my baby, you still are. Sure we had some bad times, but we were always there for each other. 

We had so many plans for the future. We were supposed to grow old together. There are so many places I wanted to show you, and what really hurts me is that you never got to see the only place I can really call home. 

They said you were beautiful, now you’re the most beautiful and brightest star in the sky. You wanted to be everyone’s friend, even if someone didn’t like you, you still gave them so much love. And I will never regret the day you became my baby and Nano’s little brother. You were annoying sometimes, but don’t we all? You had so much personality, so much heart. 

You always sniffed everyone's eyes. People say that eyes are the window to the soul, and we wanted to believe that the reason you sniffed someone's eyes was to get to know their soul.

We ran out of time too soon. And even though you’re not here physically, you will always be here in my heart, in my memories. One day I’ll have your name on my skin, a memorial that will stay with me until it’s my time to join you. 

I loved you from the start, and will love you more each passing day. You were so innocent, too good for this world. I just wanted to give you everything, I wanted to treasure you.. Now I can only treasure the memories of you. I wish we had more time, I wish there was something I could’ve done to make things work. 

As I watched you take your last breath, I couldn't hold back the tears. I know I needed to stay strong for both of us, but at that moment I let myself break down. I watched as my tears landed on your fur, you looked so peaceful. The day was bright and warm, just like your soul.

I looked after you the best I could.. Now that you’re up there, please watch over your mom, my little angel! 

We will see again in a better place!
Love, your mom

Ps. you finally got to meet the other dogs from our family, Shiwa, Tami and Ossi.

Aiden 10.12.2013 - 04.06.2015

"No matter how little money 

and how few possessions you own, 

having a dog makes you rich."
- Louis Sabin